CHANGE HIT ME LIKE A MACRO TRUCK
By: Lauren Anderson
Lately I’ve been feeling stuck.
Stagnant. Wanting that extra something to happen or occur or manifest. Ya know? I think the beginning of fall is always ripe for feelings like this. It’s a transitional season, much like spring, so inevitably it also feels like the perfect time for something to CHANGE. Because the weather is, so I might as well too? I dunno exactly… but you get it.
So I did what anybody would do. I bought a new mattress.
And that helped a little. I mean, I’ve been sleeping like a dream. But it still couldn’t put my feelings of unrest to bed. (See what I did there? *gives self a high five, immediately regrets it, moves on and hopes no one notices in this coffee shop.)
For as wonderful as I’ve been sleeping on my new mattress, it still didn’t shake that pressing feeling from my chest. Like I’m under a boulder of my own making. And I gotta do something to roll this rock down the hill or I’m going to suffocate to death.
Whoa– colorful analogy! But hopefully it paints an accurate picture of dormant life force bubbling under the surface? Lately, in my apartment at night, I sometimes find myself just pacing around like a bored, caged animal. Hoping to burn some excess energy off. Like I’m on fire, but I have no oxygen to really let it burn.
But here’s the kicker– I haven’t done anything about it. Because you’re right, the mattress doesn’t really count. And neither does all the pacing.
On top of wanting change to happen, I guess I’ve also been hoping that a change would happen without me doing anything. Like something new and exciting and brain-consuming would just fall into my lap. But that’s flawed thinking right? Because it puts all the agency, power, “get up and go”, whatever you want to call it, out of my hands.
I gotta remember to take my own damn advice sometimes. (I mean, I think I just literally wrote about this last week!) I gotta remember that things just don’t happen to me– I can also HAPPEN TO IT.
If I want change really and truly, I have to be the one to court it. To invite it. To seek it. Knowing that if I do, I will also have to boldly pursue and then try and accept the discomfort that change may bring. And that can be a hard thing to choose to do to yourself. Especially when your life is tripping along like mine has been lately… aka “business as usual”.
I mean, it’s easy to seek discomfort when your life is already uncomfortable. Because you want OUT of that afflictive place you’re in. But what if you’re that different version like me? Where I am generally in a good place… just feeling hopelessly stuck in a monotonous cycle, I’m not sure I signed up for?
Well, I think I just answered my own question. Because the minute that I typed that last sentence out, I had my answer. I can’t just wait around for someone or something to push me, I have to remember that I also can take a step forward, and move myself to the next place. NO PUSHING REQUIRED.
So what does that look like? Well for me right now, it starts with signing up for the Solcana Fall Macro Challenge.
What is that Lauren? I know right? Sounds like I just strung together a few words that sound familiar and called it a thing. But I assure you, it’s the change I’ve been courting. And I am excited and nervous to do this.
So, if you’ve been following this blog, (Firstly, thank you. I am in love with you and your excellent taste and use of time.) you know that I have made great strides in my relationship with food and my body over the course of this journey. It has been a long strange trip, and sometimes when I look back, I can’t believe I used to be so cruel to myself.
Yeah, I did just use the word “cruel”, even though it seems dramatic. Because now that I’m on the other side of it, I know there is a kinder and more loving way to be to myself, and that is worth all the golden eggs out of all the goose’s butts in all the fairytales ever written.
So long story long, being in this new place, I guess I’m finally ready for a level up. I am ready to start asking my body not just to be friends with me, but also to be the champion that I need to fight the good fight. I want to know more and do more with my body. I want to hear it, and understand what it’s asking for. I want to help it be the warrior and the scholar that it longs to also be!
So, enter THE MACRO CHALLENGE.
At the gym, I’ve heard a lot of the coaches and some dedicated athletes talk about “Tracking Macros”. Macros– which is short for Macro-nutrients– are basically three simple things: Proteins, Fats, and Carbohydrates. They make up 100 percent of the things that you eat, and 100 percent of where your body gets energy to do it’s thang.
There are also Micro-nutrients that your body needs like Magnesium and Iron, minerals, vitamins and all that stuff. But we’re not talking about that today. Cause really, that’s above my pay-grade.
In a nutshell, consuming a balanced amount of macros, specific to your body type and overall goals, can wildly affect the gains you make at the gym. I have known people to change their entire body composition, while being able to lift more weight, and basically become a more powerful overall athlete! I have seen people who track their macros gain personal records at the gym on almost a daily basis, because they are able to pinpoint what their body is truly craving and provide it for them.
So during the next 5 weeks of this challenge, I will be working with Emily Field, RD. She specializes in macro tracking. I will be taking an online class, along with other people at Solcana, and I will be learning the ins and outs of really listening to your body and giving it the macros it wants, when it needs them! And I am excited to share what I learn along the way!
It’s already challenging and we just officially started yesterday. But I feel up for it. I’m excited to meet my body and my way of thinking about food in a new way–and also nervous– but I think this is just the kind of change I have been searching for.
I know, because when I finally signed up for the challenge, it felt like I was smacked in the face with a truck. But like, in a good way! (If that’s a thing…)
Because for the first time in a long time, I felt jolted out of my doldrums and truly excited.
And maybe because the universe works in mysterious ways, I know I’m on to something here. Because when I got in my car yesterday, thinking about the play on words about Macros, and Mack trucks… a literal semi full of meat pulled out in front of me. If this were a movie, THAT WOULD BE A SIGN.
And when I switched on the radio, I KID YOU NOT, “Truckin” by the Grateful Dead was playing.
“Sometimes the light’s all shinin’ on me,
Other times I can barely see.
Lately it occurs to me what a long, strange trip it’s been.”
AHHHHH! Crazy right? Just me?
Was it a coincidence? Oh hell yeah. Probably. But because I’m prone to magical thinking, I like to fathom that it’s also a boon, or a blessing from the universe that’s telling me in no uncertain terms to GO GO GO.
Steady and strong into a new challenge, like a mack truck on an open road.
Tracking Macros and moving my own damn self down the line.